Higher Power

I was baptized Catholic. I guess that means that my "higher power" should be the God, Jesus Christ, and the Holy Ghost--the whole Catholic Trinity deal. Somewhere along the way I decided it was smarter to be an atheist--how could I honestly support a religious organization with as much "troubling" history as the Catholic church? Truthfully, though, as much as I intellectually wanted to distance myself from religion, my gut, my heart, my intuition--whatever you want to call it--was shouting otherwise. A part of me firmly believes, no matter how much evidence to the contrary, that there is something out there. There is something bigger and stronger and wiser than me that guides my days and provides insight if I'll willing to pay attention. Is that something God? I don't know. I don't necessarily think it needs a word or a firm definition as long as it works for me. And when I manage to unclutter my head and quiet my thinking, it DOES work for me. Inspiration can be found in a seemingly random song, the meow of a disgruntled cat, or the tearful ramblings of another drunk. To me, there is always guidance available if I make myself willing to listen.